I am so blessed to receive emails from a few of those who have viewed my talk in Sedona, Arizona, (filmed by David Sunfellow, NHNE-NDE, who had invited me to speak,) on You-Tube (Becki Hawkins/Nurse Shares 30 Years).
A couple of days ago a gentleman from the UK sent me the email below. I asked for his permission to share it with you. "By all means!" he said.
"Hello Becki. I just happened across one of your videos on YouTube and it moved me so much that I wanted to share with you my experiences before my Mum's death in January this year.
I don't want to go into details, but Mum had a terrible final six months of life before she died. She ended up having a severe stroke which left her more or less immobile and she spent the last five weeks of her life in a hospital bed. As a result of the stroke she was unconscious most of the time, growing ever weaker because she couldn't swallow enough food to stay alive. She was put on what was called the Liverpool Pathway, which is palliative care only treatment for patients who have no hope of recovering.
When it was clear the end was approaching, my sister, wife and I decided we would take turns staying 24/7 with Mum in hospital because she always said she didn't want to die alone. Four days before she died I was staying with her overnight. She was physically very weak at that point, had been unconscious for a long time and didn't respond in any meaningful way to our voices or touch. About 2 am her eyes suddenly opened real wide and a big smile came across her face. She tried to lift herself up, held her right arm out and waved towards the corner of the room which was dimly lit at the time. I could see her lips moving like she was talking to someone but there were no words coming out. Then she said, quite clearly, 'No, not yet' and then, after a short pause, 'Bye' before closing her eyes and falling back into unconsciousness. I want to stress that, up to this point she hadn't been able to move unless the nurses moved her and certainly hadn't spoken proper words for a long time. Two days later I was staying overnight again and, at around the same time, the same thing happened. This time she said, 'Hiya' and then 'Yes'. Mum died the next day.
I decided to tell my sister about what had happened. I hadn't done so previously because she was an emotional wreck and I didn't want to upset her even more. She went very quiet and told me that she had had the same experience when she overnighted with Mum between my two experiences.
Mum wasn't on any sedation or painkillers when this happened and neither of us saw any sign of what she was seeing. I don't know who came for her on each of those three occasions and why she wanted to hold on the first time. Maybe she just wanted to spend a little longer with her family around her."
This is one of the reasons I write and speak and share stories. Sharing the stories helps others to not fear death!!
I am so grateful for his email!!
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Monday, April 7, 2014
LIFE IS A CIRCLE
Occasionally I receive emails from someone who has visited my YouTube video: Transitions/Nurse Shares 30 Years of Spiritual Experiences filmed by David Sunfellow when I spoke in Sedona, or has read my book about some of my patients' experiences with pre-death visions or NDEs , near death experiences.
They remind me afresh of how truly connected we are, how brief it all is upon this Earth even if you live to be 110, how miraculous each love connection is for us as we live and as we die.
One email came from a dear lady who wanted to share with me about her experiences of "the time I thought I was drowning" and "the experience I had with my Mom". She gave me permission to share this.
"The first was in college. I went swimming and got caught in an undertow that went beneath a pile of giant boulders. I tried desperately to not go under but did. BOOM! Instant relax! Then a grayish-blue tunnel or circular and cloudy path. First dark, then light. But as I said I did not get to the end as I heard the voice that said "not yet". I do not know how I was jettisoned out and do not recall how I climbed onto the river rock on the other side. My boyfriend at that time had climbed over the top of the boulders and came to my side. All I could do was sit there Yet, it changes you. I'm not afraid of death as I know there is more. Life is a circle.
In my Mom's case, she was severely diabetic, fell, and started to go through kidney failure. I, of course, kept hoping she'd get better...but I knew. She was on heavy pain killers and in and out of lucid thought. I sang 'Home on the Range' hoping that she'd hear me. Then five minutes later while I was talking with the nurse and my daughter, Mom started to sing, 'where the deer and the antelopes play'. I knew that she knew I was there. I left for a few hours realizing how little time was left. Before I left she shouted, "Fertilize the flowers!" I thought about it. At her parents, my Dad's and my step-father's services she had the song, In the Garden, sung. I knew.
When I got back to her bedside I used my cell phone to pull up the words and I sang them once through, sang it again, and she died just as I finished. Amazing...just went to sleep. I now believe that whatever it was that went through me when she died was the last of her energy, or spirit. It was pretty powerful. I think she did it on purpose, as a gift, to help me deal with her loss and all of the issues I now would have to face and finish for her.
I will never forget how her faced opened up when she "saw" my Dad before she died. Such a look of surprise!! Then she started "kissing" the air/him...awesome, in the definitive sense. I told Mom it was time. She was born in Star, Texas and now, she is a star.
You can use my information I have here. If it gives anyone hope, all the better. Thank you!"
The movie, Heaven is for Real, is coming out soon. I've heard so many stories, I won't miss it!
David Sunfellow has on his website NHNE-NDE a quote in his new newsletter. It is by NDEr Reasearcher Kenneth Ring, from Lessons from the Light
"To dwell on the nature of the afterlife may divert us from paying attention to THIS life, where the lessons from the Light need to be practiced...The true promise of the NDE is not so much what it suggests about an afterlife--as inspiring and comforting as those glimpses are--but what it says about how to live NOW...to learn from NDErs about how to live, or how to live better, with greater self-awareness, self-compassion, and concern for others. Live well, and death will take care of itself."
I agree. I love to hear the stories, but I hope to learn from them how to pay attention to this day, this life and to remember that we are told from those who share their 'life reviews' when they arrive, that every thought, every word, every deed matters more than we can imagine!
In Love and Light!
Becki
They remind me afresh of how truly connected we are, how brief it all is upon this Earth even if you live to be 110, how miraculous each love connection is for us as we live and as we die.
One email came from a dear lady who wanted to share with me about her experiences of "the time I thought I was drowning" and "the experience I had with my Mom". She gave me permission to share this.
"The first was in college. I went swimming and got caught in an undertow that went beneath a pile of giant boulders. I tried desperately to not go under but did. BOOM! Instant relax! Then a grayish-blue tunnel or circular and cloudy path. First dark, then light. But as I said I did not get to the end as I heard the voice that said "not yet". I do not know how I was jettisoned out and do not recall how I climbed onto the river rock on the other side. My boyfriend at that time had climbed over the top of the boulders and came to my side. All I could do was sit there Yet, it changes you. I'm not afraid of death as I know there is more. Life is a circle.
In my Mom's case, she was severely diabetic, fell, and started to go through kidney failure. I, of course, kept hoping she'd get better...but I knew. She was on heavy pain killers and in and out of lucid thought. I sang 'Home on the Range' hoping that she'd hear me. Then five minutes later while I was talking with the nurse and my daughter, Mom started to sing, 'where the deer and the antelopes play'. I knew that she knew I was there. I left for a few hours realizing how little time was left. Before I left she shouted, "Fertilize the flowers!" I thought about it. At her parents, my Dad's and my step-father's services she had the song, In the Garden, sung. I knew.
When I got back to her bedside I used my cell phone to pull up the words and I sang them once through, sang it again, and she died just as I finished. Amazing...just went to sleep. I now believe that whatever it was that went through me when she died was the last of her energy, or spirit. It was pretty powerful. I think she did it on purpose, as a gift, to help me deal with her loss and all of the issues I now would have to face and finish for her.
I will never forget how her faced opened up when she "saw" my Dad before she died. Such a look of surprise!! Then she started "kissing" the air/him...awesome, in the definitive sense. I told Mom it was time. She was born in Star, Texas and now, she is a star.
You can use my information I have here. If it gives anyone hope, all the better. Thank you!"
The movie, Heaven is for Real, is coming out soon. I've heard so many stories, I won't miss it!
David Sunfellow has on his website NHNE-NDE a quote in his new newsletter. It is by NDEr Reasearcher Kenneth Ring, from Lessons from the Light
"To dwell on the nature of the afterlife may divert us from paying attention to THIS life, where the lessons from the Light need to be practiced...The true promise of the NDE is not so much what it suggests about an afterlife--as inspiring and comforting as those glimpses are--but what it says about how to live NOW...to learn from NDErs about how to live, or how to live better, with greater self-awareness, self-compassion, and concern for others. Live well, and death will take care of itself."
I agree. I love to hear the stories, but I hope to learn from them how to pay attention to this day, this life and to remember that we are told from those who share their 'life reviews' when they arrive, that every thought, every word, every deed matters more than we can imagine!
In Love and Light!
Becki
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